Working

I do like my job .Comparison to many, this is one of the best.I shouldn complain more, as jobs are hard to seek.I should be grateful i guess.Sometimes i don't feel satisfied because i really want to do something that is more then a job.Its a interest ,its the passion for the things i want to do.

I should be contented because its 1 more step closer to the dream job im seeking for.This post just makes it sound even more like im losing my focus.I agree.There is a urge to move a big step forward,i confess.I have been like this for some time because i think i lack discipline to learn.I need a guide which requires no guide to guide me a long.

I realise life is about gaining many or none.There is no such thing as middle.

Nightmares

I hate the dry work that are needed to be done.Its frustrating because i know im wasting every single min of my youth.Something is missing.I dunno what is going on and what m i actually craving for but i do realise im running out of time.How am i going to figure out ?

i wonder...

A Business Reality

Tough times.Its hard to get a job nowadays.i admire people who build their own business from the root with their own hands.They are the guys that create jobs for the people.They created a community for the pool of talents to shine.It will become a place and a home for the people to work hard on ,to build.As the economy turn bad,they have to face a cruel side of life.They have to ditch the weak to save the entire community.Its hard to accept the fact.When the economic is up its not really a good news either.The higher it gets the harder impact it will receive when it falls.

You build up your own,You clear up the crap when it fails but reap the most when its in a good shape.

Life.....interesting.....

crazy sicky day

This morning i cough myself awake.Didn know what happen to me.My throat seems smaller for me to breathe.Felt pain at my left cheek because of the uncler i had.Moody as always.Im still thinking about the Metal gear Solid videos i watch on you tube.It was a great game, great storyline and definitely brings your mood down.The plot is about worthless war.Take a look if you are interested.Don't have to worry whether you have PS3 or none.Just search at youtube "Metal Gear Solid 4 Walkthrough" and you will find it.The Uploader created the entire walkthrough including the videos of storylines.Its the best game i had ever seen.107 episodes of Metal gear solid 4 videos.,storylines.

Oh today i went to queue up for TODAY , i heard this hiliarious conversation between an uncle and auntie.

The auntie ask " Hey how many you going to take today."
The uncle said " later then say. the newspaper man always dun let me take 3 back."
The auntie said " i take for you later lo"
The uncle said " no need i take my self"
( hokkien)

Their conversation seems like they are competing how many newspaper they can get.It can be a topic for them to talk about.The uncle is a bout his 60ties 70ties.

Self encouragement

Its been few days bloggy=).
I realised its quite easy to write something when you listen to emo song.Songs by Boyce Avenue,Neyo-because of you,Mario-let me breathe and James Morrison-Broken String are great songs.And thats waht im doing right now.If you are really down or moodless try spending some cash to buy a quality ear piece and playing your favourite songs.It really helps.Some how it takes you out of your own life and put your self in other people's shoes.Great technique to relax.

Hmm somehow whatever im doing and i have done doest make me feel very good.Its not my best and its far worst then average.I want to change but i need a guide.Deep down i want to try it my own way and i think i can but every time ii fail its makes it much more difficult the next time i try again.This is a brain thing.I read a article few days back.A strong person is some one who can control his own will and wants .Able to deal with temptation is a great ability and power to a human.It makes great differences to a person.I want this ability.Chant this in to your head and you will suceed.=/.Chant this till you know you want you will.Come on Zhihui.Take neccessary action now.Better & better & better then the best of the best!
For your love ones.

1 Yr Anniversary

Ok time for a entry.Things happened.Hmm nothing quite interesting happen.Monday i was playing majong with till morning tues.1 year anniversary for both of us on 3rd March 2009.Its been a great year of Ups and downs but im glad i have you.That its all matters.=).Ok we had movie Marley & me at Cinileisure theatre.I know why people is saying that the movie is the best.The show is really a touching one and it really deserve a compliment for that.I had tears in my eyes.Movies do not need a fantastic and facinating plot to shine.Just normal people with normal lives will do.Watch it you will know=).Basically....its just a movie about a couple with 3 kids and a dog.Congrats.Great show i have to admit.

After movie was dinner.Hard Rock cafe.I didn think it was a good idea to eat there because its really expensive.The food turn out to be better then what i expected.We had a hearty chat=) and great time taking pictures.

Desserts at Big O. Mud pie. Choc i/c with Banana fudge i/c mixed.I think its better if the banana ice cream should be first layer , i told baby about this.She agree=).2 pictures again=).

That ends our day on 3rd of march 2009.

Reflect =X

I know this week is one hell week for you.

I want to be always good enough for everything.

I'm still not giving up in trying.

I will be better i promised.

Its for you.

Ups & Down Weekend

lets start from friday.=)

Friday was hectic.Got to rush down to Bubblemotion for debugging.Didn get anything much done somemore.

Hmm..My brain was like empty all day.I couldn get anything done.Quite disappointed.Still late for my work.Ok but work was ok till about 10 plus when i felt kind of not focus.i was like quite hungry because i didn have dinner.But in the end hot side got cook some fries and blanket.Majong the whole night at glenn house after that.Luck isn that good because i only win 1 round.4 winds.i seriously thinking this year my luck isn so good which i have no reason why.I use to always win the first round of majong.And my beginner luck is gone i guess.=/My day ends off in the morning.

Saturday i started off my day at 2 pm.Really got a DayMares because i didn turn up at bubblemotion when i suppose to be there at 1 pm to get my programming done.Luckily i manage to solve the bug at 4pm at home.Get my house cleaned up and prepared for Cousin wedding dinner.The place is like at orchard parade hotel.The food was like not bad and we got a few "wedding games" last min planned for the groom.

Chengxi (cousin) was like mixing beer and wine together ,soya sauce, lemon,abit veggy=X.Then there was another game that the bride mus try to get a boiled egg through his pants.Starting point is at the right part of the pants. Sadly i didn manage to see everything done.

Cousin & Groom

Tonic from us=X

Superman Kiss

1/4 for chengxi,1/3 for groom

I can't Sleep

Hmm i guess i still can;t sleep this few days because i guess i turn my slping hour around already=X.I guess i really got to change it back because im starting work next month.I need to kick my not waking up habit away.Haiz.Hmm mre photos. More me and baby.

Graduation

Damn Long i Never update.And is like today is Glenn's birthday celebration =).Found a job.Graduated.Great.

more photos!!!

normal day

Work
Flipping through for jobs.
Tired

Today is a normal day

A New Week

Went to work as usual today .These days im really didn have the mood to get my programming done.Today there are some changes made so actually i did finish the main part of the programming.Thats a relieve.I want to learn so many programming lang but i have so little time.i quite surprise that DHTML can do so many things.I sldn waste any more time.

I met Mt after work today.Headed to Jurong Point.The place was so big.Didn really shop every thing cause we taken quite a long time eating our dinner.I shall go down again soon to explore the whole place.Dinner was great at lai lai new rou mian restaurant.The Soup base was so tasty.I left no food on the table to be clear.Just empty plates=).Ok signing off....

18th Jan

Birthday party at Changi!
Haapy birthday Susanti
Sushi Cake for every one.
We bbq ,
We Steam Boat
We threw water bomb,
We sneaked in to the pool.
We threw people down the pool.
We took photos.
We had fun.=)

20th birthday

My Birthday Cake (Blueberry cheezecake)



Mt,tc,lu,stanley,glenn,claire,michelle,nelson,shirley if i didn get it wrong.Many thanks for making my 20th birthday a memorable.Thanks tc,lu,stanley,glenn for the wardrope to hang my clothes.Its really quite surprising to receive this. its something that i really need.Thanks mt for making so much effort along with glenn & claire & michelle to make me the blueberry cheese cake.Thanks tc lu stanley for taking up the roles to be make this surprise happening. Seriously it really kind of awkward at the first place. because of all this.But deep down i really felt great because its the best birthday ever and u guys been spending so much effort to make me happy.appreciated =)

16th Jan ---> eve

mt left today..
miss u...

20 years has past.
Really have to emo a while to reflect what the hell i have become.=).
Whats going to happen in ten years time.
Whats going to happen in the future.
Today met james for dinner , had a good chat and discussion on work.Really admire his determination and inspiration to do something.Hes smart.i had to admit.

After that took train back.The whole time i was quite excited taking the LRT cause i seldom can take.Especially the windows.It can blur it self to prevent the commuters to peep into people's houses.

Met up with Glenn and huifen and jingkai wthen i drop off the train.jingkai changed.Hes darker now .Huifen still the same girl i met few years back ,still as strong haha.thanks for your wishes.=)

Hais im so tired.Blogging now is boring.Gtg



signing off

Boring day

I got to get my things done soon.Been quite stuck at my project for quite a while.Lunch is at Macdonalds opposite international plaza.The service was good at the new outlet but quite hectic.
Dinner at fish and cold.Seafood platter and extra rice.I dunno why am i blogging where there is nothing to blog about except for food.

signing off...

Stanley

Great night..
Happy birthday Stan
Had steak for dinner
Had chivas for dessert.
Small chivas for 130 dollars.
Stan got drunk
Climb spider web
Sad.. no pictures



Every thing turn out quite well at the dinner.Every one was high including me.We had chats, we had laughter over the entire night.Best of all Stanley was happy today.We played small pranks of whip cream.I tried to tell them not to play already.But sometimes i had to be bad guy for once to be a good guy so i played a long.I only had
one plate.The Rest of them have 2.=P
We came up behind Stanley with piles of whip cream and smash it on his face.
Surprised Stan with special appearance of Clair,Cakes & present.Claire made Tiramisu cake and bought another cake incase the tiramisu isn tat good.It turn out well.There is cheese cake too.Comments for the cheese cakes and tiramisu=).Tiramisu will be perfectly fine if its dryer.But its the best cake of the night.Cheese cake gives a taste of sweetness at the beginning and ends with a -_- .But its quite close to perfection.LoL i make so much comment but what i did is eat.=X.The Cake was great Really.Stan likes it most importantly.

We had kissing games after tat.Today we lost our first kiss from a guy to Stanley..Shitz.Its the most gayish act i have ever ever done.Is like Holy shit feeling when the wet lips touches mine.U tried to imagine its a girl but when the lips touches the lips is like u felt like "!@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#@!".If any guy dun believe me can tried it with yr gd fren=)

Stanley had to lock arms with claire to eat cakes and drinks shots.

Ok but tat was entertaining.After tat we have Lc game.Ai ya no video.cAnnot show.Anyway is N16.hmm.Its Rough , quick ,wet & long.ok nth=).Next ....

Stanley was stunned when he open the present
The present is Adidas jacket which stan wanted very much.
He had that 5 Pure shots of Chivas for Claire.Ends up a bit tipsy.
I guesss everything went quite well the whole night.Im updating this because i dun wan these memories to be forgotton.Its a night to remember.
Thanks guys and girls for the night.

Didn had so much fun for quite long already right?
im tired.


signing off..

A "great" start of 2009.

I screwed up my NapFa test today.My legs died on me at the critical moment.

Final Grade is
A
A
B
B
C
E

E for my 2.4 km.
Screw it...

Tues 13th Jan is the retest.13th is Stans birthday.13th is 2 days before mt leave=/.13th Jan another day of torture on the field.13th Jan is 3 days before my birthday.13th Jan is when i walk out the Track & Field with a Gold in my hand =).

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Mt is tired.Rest well my girl.=)
8-Jan-O9 10.47 Pm(SG)

Few days before 2009

5 mins ago i having a discussion on my new project.Thats cool.Im already quite bored doing all the research for the pass few days.I wish i got a brain who can think far ahead.=/and i need it fast.
i didn get my furniture yesterday because i couldn throw away my old one.Sad.Its really good and pleasant looking one.
Im getting back to work .=)

R & R

Its stressful to be an adult.Its something everyone will only understand when someone get through it.Im young .Sometimes i already trying desperately to catch my breath.I think a lot but its no use.Its the mindset and feelings that always makes me sway away from reality.

When it comes to reality its hard to accept it.Reality is always painful at times.Things cannot be undo.I know that but i couldn get use to the situation.I really admire people who can excel in every thing they do.I use to think i can. But right now i onli hope i will in the future.Efforts & Determination and many plannings have to be made.Process leads to pain.I want to learn to enjoy it.